Piggiedearz: your difficult time will pass!! Talk to bb, build a bond, jia you. Talk to hubby!! Buy cute bb posters to look at. Evertbody's pregnancy is different. I am sure your hard work, all the suffering will pay off!
As for giving up, yes. I did. But it was because I already planned to stop at 2. This was accidental and when I found out, I wanted to go for xxx but hubby discouraged me. Though accidntal, he felt it was god's gift and asked me to think about those who wanted kids yet cannot. Why are we throwing life away. Frankly speaking, I haven't come to terms with it, especially since I have nothing left- start afresh as if this is the first bb! When wr went fir frst checkup, i was actually secretly hoping no heartbeat. we went for oscars, I told him, if anything I don't want. He agreed but all was okay. And it was then that really dawned on me, it's fated. Why do I think bad thoughts?
So now, I'm slowly accepting it, hoping to fond a better bond once I know the gender!
You're prob miserable w a ll the suffering, that's why u start to think negative. But all bad things will pass! Talk to hubby, talk to us, u are not alone.
Jia you!