Jojo, i'm not an exp mum but i jus like to share with u my shallow experience. Since the day i knew i was pregnant i had very strong stand on my birth plan that I want natural without epi. But as the weeks pass, doc says my girl is breech have to csec, i refuse to give up, i even thought of trying for a breech natural birth. Everytime go checkup i will be very dissapointed. I tried all sorts of positions, tilts etc hoping she will turn even thou im already having serious heartburn. Even up till the min i was wheeled into the OT i was still very sad that I need a csec. But when i finally carry her in my arms, i realise that i was so silly to be so stubborn. It really didnt matter the birth method. I think u being a second time mummy will know better than me the joy of having ur bb safely in ur arms. It indeed is a regret not being able to experience natural birth. But I think the most important is not give yourself stress. Since u have already booked ur csec for tmr, just have to relax now, forget about trying to figure out why ur gyn didnt supprt vbac, stay happy and be prepare to receive ur greatest joy tmr!!! Jiayou!! =)
Today seems to be a better day for me, ytd I was ranting that i couldn't handle my bb..hehe today less clumsy liao, i could carry her with more "seh" now..feed and burp..coax her and change diaper faster! ^^ yeah! So happy...am beginning to enjoy motherhood liaoz... (okay that is provided she doen't fuss too much)
But my morning happy mood is dampened by my MIL who just came over... sometimes i really cannot stand the words she say. Keep saying that my girl look exactly like daddy (aka her son la)... then keep emphasizing the the feng shui master who calculated her chi name says that my girl ba zi very good, very have very gd life, super smart in futre etc etc... Seriously lar, if my girl really end up very clever in the future shouldnt the credits be given to mummy and daddy for giving her gd foundations and learning environment? Why is it that if she's very clever its because her ba-zi says so? and MIL also say she showed my girls pic to all her relatives and everyone say look 100% like daddy, machiam like photocopy like that...seriously i listen liao very buay song lorz..come on, where do u think ur precious graddaughter came fm? I carried her for 10mths and underwent the knief and all the pain lor..then now i'm like not given any credits at all. *humph* >.<
then after that my girl poop, MIL offered to change her diaper, I really got no eyes to see lor, use the wet wipe, wipe once liao then the poo on it she use the same side to wipe and wipe again several times, smearing the poo all the way to the vulva area.. in the end i cannot tahan, just take over and wipe her myself. at that moment i really wan to say her, but i "ren" cos me and hb have a conscences that anything we want to tell our MIL, we will let each other know and leave it to the other party to say so that we do not strain r/s with in laws... =s
haiz...at this situation how u think i will fang-xin let my MIL take care of my girl when i gpo back work?