Sisters, can I be honest? As I am waiting for DH's soldiers to do their jobs, and waiting for my appointment with Dr. tmr morning, I am afraid.
I am afraid that out of 24 eggs, I will have less than 10 viable embryos. I am afraid that out of 10, I will have only a handful of blastocysts. I am afraid that the single transferred blastocyst will not make it. If that blastocyst does not make it, I will have to fall back on my frozen blastocysts but I am also afraid that they will not survive the freezing and thawing process. I am afraid that after a big round of pain and hope, I will be back to square one, with no baby to hold in my arms.
I am afraid.
I wished that I would have a just-right number of viable embryos that make it to the blastocyst stage. I wished that the one blastocyst will blossom into a beautiful baby. I wished that I will have another few blastocysts that survive the thawing process well so that my first baby will have a few other siblings to play with. I wish that this will be the first and last IVF cycle I ever have to embark on.
I am terrified and I do not know what to do about it.
I also think your numbers are good. Try to think of all the questions you have and ask your doctor tomorrow. It is important to communicate with your doctor. Not knowing what's going to happen can create more anxiety..I dunno how many have survived, or are matured. Doctor did not get to tell me much, except to ask whether I wanted everything to be fertilised and I said ok. I forgot to ask whether I could freeze the eggs without fertilisation. Doctor also told me she wants to get to blastocyst stage, and only 1 will be implanted. I can see the sense in that because she wants to avoid possibility of twin pregnancy. But I can't help but wonder why others get 2 and I only get 1 shot... if that 2 blastocyst does not make it, then.......
As it stands, I don't even know whether I will be having ET tmr because she just asked me to turn up. Nurse told me to fast and everything but no one has told me whether the embryos will be transferred tmr, or on Monday. The lack of information is killing me!
Hello, I think you are putting a lot of stress on yourself. Of course we go into IVF hoping for the best outcome. But in life many things are not that straight forward. Please do not think of so many what if. Just relax and as long as you have been taking good care of your body and husband has been taking care of himself, let your body do the work ie let nature takes its course. A relaxed mind and body is the best environment for our embryos.
For me, I delayed child birth because I never thought I wanted children. However hubby likes children and after much thinking and wondering if this could become a major regret later in life, I decided to give it a shot and let fate decide if we should be parents (I'm turning 40 very soon, so way past child bearing age). I decided to try IVF after doing some research online. The injections were quite traumatizing for me but I put up a brave front and psycho myself everyday to complete the injections. After going to women's clinic so many times and seeing so many newborn, I also started to yearn for my own baby in my arms. However, I tell myself that I want to bring a healthy baby to this world and if things do not work out which I will attribute to either poor condition of the embryo and/or my womb, then it would be better to fail now than to bring an unhealthy newborn to this world to suffer. Hence instead of thinking of the end result which will drive up my stress level, I focus on eating good food and taking care of my body to give my IVF process my best shot. If it happens, great and if it doesn't happen, my hubby and I know we have tried our best. We will not live with regrets and can start planning how to have a happy retirement life with just the two of us. Hopefully by sharing my story, I have taken away some of the anxiety you are feeling
Statistic have shown after 3 tries success rate do dropped. However statistic are just numbers. There are many who did more than 3 times before they succeed. It also depends on your age group and whether you have the time to slowly try. Giving up or not is up to individual. if you have the mental n financial strength to go on then why not. Some drs will recommend other solutions after you have failed ivf for few times. I feel that one should not be upset or angry with alternative proposal. Open up your mind n heart n to accept or not is up to you. Drs could be giving U a choice and not necessary meaning he or she is giving up on U.
Wah.. $15k cash?? @@Hi @missyscorpio Sorry I took so long to tabulate. I have paid $13,141.40 on the treatment right up to pregnancy BT and $2,303 for the medication. So total $15,444.44. Wah, so many 4s!
Don't be too paranoid. It's something we can't control. At least u have 24 eggs to begin with.Sisters, can I be honest? As I am waiting for DH's soldiers to do their jobs, and waiting for my appointment with Dr. tmr morning, I am afraid.
I am afraid that out of 24 eggs, I will have less than 10 viable embryos. I am afraid that out of 10, I will have only a handful of blastocysts. I am afraid that the single transferred blastocyst will not make it. If that blastocyst does not make it, I will have to fall back on my frozen blastocysts but I am also afraid that they will not survive the freezing and thawing process. I am afraid that after a big round of pain and hope, I will be back to square one, with no baby to hold in my arms.
I am afraid.
I wished that I would have a just-right number of viable embryos that make it to the blastocyst stage. I wished that the one blastocyst will blossom into a beautiful baby. I wished that I will have another few blastocysts that survive the thawing process well so that my first baby will have a few other siblings to play with. I wish that this will be the first and last IVF cycle I ever have to embark on.
I am terrified and I do not know what to do about it.
Yes, no choice cos I can't use any Govt co-funding or medisave anymore. It wasn't that bad for a start cos small amounts each month. The killer was the one $9K+ I had to pay after the ET.Wah.. $15k cash?? @@
Sisters, can I be honest? As I am waiting for DH's soldiers to do their jobs, and waiting for my appointment with Dr. tmr morning, I am afraid.
I am afraid that out of 24 eggs, I will have less than 10 viable embryos. I am afraid that out of 10, I will have only a handful of blastocysts. I am afraid that the single transferred blastocyst will not make it. If that blastocyst does not make it, I will have to fall back on my frozen blastocysts but I am also afraid that they will not survive the freezing and thawing process. I am afraid that after a big round of pain and hope, I will be back to square one, with no baby to hold in my arms.
I am afraid.
I wished that I would have a just-right number of viable embryos that make it to the blastocyst stage. I wished that the one blastocyst will blossom into a beautiful baby. I wished that I will have another few blastocysts that survive the thawing process well so that my first baby will have a few other siblings to play with. I wish that this will be the first and last IVF cycle I ever have to embark on.
I am terrified and I do not know what to do about it.
Dear sisters, sorry to share bad news here.
At 4+am this morning, was awaken by a sharp pain in my abdominal area. Went to toilet and passed out big chunks of liver like tissues.
Woke hb up and he scooped up the tissues (sorry tmi) and we headed down to KKH O&G.
Throughout it all, I was very calm (hb says scarily calm) and composed. No tears, I think it's becos I always had this niggling feeling that sth is wrong so I was alr prepared for this day to come. And becos I have been thru a stillborn @ 24wks so this was considerably less heartbreaking.
We didn't have to wait too long. Doc took our tissues samples and took blood from me.
Results came back after 2 hrs. Beta has dropped from 73 to 29.
Currently still resting in observation ward.
I'm OK... Will look forward to my FET before end of this year. May not want to go thru a second fresh as quite traumatised by the bleeding episodes etc. Come what may.
Hope the stork visits all sisters here with good news soon and no one has to go thru this.
Hi AAOM, have you and your hubs done the blood test? If yes, all should be good to go! Welcome to injections and egg whites and longan red date tea!
I agree with you. It's quite a lonely journey when people around you are not understanding enough. I sounded my parents out before I did my first IVF and as traditional parents, they also don't understand why need to do IVF. So I actually didn't share with them at all and went ahead quietly. And when I gave birth to my firstborn, I actually banked his cord blood cos I was afraid that being a IVF baby he may not be as healthy as those who were conceived naturally (see, I have been influenced by the same mentality as those disapproving people) plus it was a popular thing to do. When a friend gave birth to her first child, I actually asked her if she has intention to do bank her child's cord blood cos I could refer her. She replied to say "Don't think so since mine is not through IVF". Her response really hurt me deeply as though my child is some alien just because he was conceived with help.
It's really a tough journey so I hope we continue to encourage one another because only we know what one another is going through. Jia you and baby dust to you @DawnBB .
Hihi.. U can just tell them u are going for some cyst removal or what... That's what I did. The HL mc won't state the reason. So no worries ..Agreed that this is really a lonely and tough journey...
Me and hubby have a little baby before but we lost him when the baby us 5 month in my tummy... The concern from both our family after that has created much stress in us.. And also having us to explain to them the reason why the baby could not survive due to gens issue was a headache... They start digging the family background n finding whose gens when wrong but in fact to us all this does not matter because is a gens we cant choose and the finger should not be pointing at anyone...
Now that me and my hubby has decide this IVF journey... We decide that since is a decision of our own we will not inform them until there is good news... I don know if is wrong to do so... But it seems so hard to explain to them why we want to do so and such... I don deny that part of the reason is im afriad that it might not turn out well and they will be disappointed again... Till date only my best friend and my elder sister know about our IVF decision....
I'm also quite concern when i need to take the 2 week HL... How do you girls explain to your collegue on this 2 week HL? Is there Any way to like don't tell them that im going through IVF?
Agreed that this is really a lonely and tough journey...
Me and hubby have a little baby before but we lost him when the baby us 5 month in my tummy... The concern from both our family after that has created much stress in us.. And also having us to explain to them the reason why the baby could not survive due to gens issue was a headache... They start digging the family background n finding whose gens when wrong but in fact to us all this does not matter because is a gens we cant choose and the finger should not be pointing at anyone...
Now that me and my hubby has decide this IVF journey... We decide that since is a decision of our own we will not inform them until there is good news... I don know if is wrong to do so... But it seems so hard to explain to them why we want to do so and such... I don deny that part of the reason is im afriad that it might not turn out well and they will be disappointed again... Till date only my best friend and my elder sister know about our IVF decision....
I'm also quite concern when i need to take the 2 week HL... How do you girls explain to your collegue on this 2 week HL? Is there Any way to like don't tell them that im going through IVF?
Good morning girls! Hope everyone here have a good day. Hope there will be good news pouring in today since we haven have a dusty forum for quite a while. Haha. Lets start the day with a positive mind and continue to fight our battle!
@babyluck, I got the CD and tried it, very relaxing and enhanced my daily nap as I got into a deep sleep. This despite the worry nagging me after returning from PIO shot at clinic.
Confirmed with the_spinsteralla that I will be returning the CD to her after my use and she can pass to you.
Am so deeply grateful!
I am occasionally taking chia seeds too! Cannot take too much and you must soak them in water for at least 20 - 30 min before consuming...Hello, anyone here taking Chia seeds? I read that it is a very good source of anti oxidant and protein. There are articles recommending taking Chia seeds when trying to conceive. Any thoughts or personal experience?
Yeeah!! time to have some baby dust instead of the dust from the haze!!Good morning girls! Hope everyone here have a good day. Hope there will be good news pouring in today since we haven have a dusty forum for quite a while. Haha. Lets start the day with a positive mind and continue to fight our battle!
@dramaqueenie take some time to heal and most importantly do and eat things that you enjoy! I had my negative result on Monday. Lets jia you together for FET!Dear sisters, sorry to share bad news here.
At 4+am this morning, was awaken by a sharp pain in my abdominal area. Went to toilet and passed out big chunks of liver like tissues.
Woke hb up and he scooped up the tissues (sorry tmi) and we headed down to KKH O&G.
Throughout it all, I was very calm (hb says scarily calm) and composed. No tears, I think it's becos I always had this niggling feeling that sth is wrong so I was alr prepared for this day to come. And becos I have been thru a stillborn @ 24wks so this was considerably less heartbreaking.
We didn't have to wait too long. Doc took our tissues samples and took blood from me.
Results came back after 2 hrs. Beta has dropped from 73 to 29.
Currently still resting in observation ward.
I'm OK... Will look forward to my FET before end of this year. May not want to go thru a second fresh as quite traumatised by the bleeding episodes etc. Come what may.
Hope the stork visits all sisters here with good news soon and no one has to go thru this.
Ladies any natural ways to cure my flu n sore throat before I embark my IVF on 30sept. Seen Doc already completed the whole course of med. but don't seem to be getting better
Dear all, thanks for sharing your experience and advise. Yes I am scare of jabbing myself, I trying to overcome it and I have to admit is easy to say than do. But still if I want to take this forward, I have to do it. And i am working and doing in office toilet with limited time is not easy but have to have faith.
My gynae told me whether IUI or ivf, these are just method to help woman get preg. This make me overcome the thought of perusing ivf in near future. These are just methods to help woman and other than that, everything is the same.
Now then I know the Long and short cycle.
This is a journey we embrace through together on board. Jia you to all <3
How much is the endo scratch ?
Press "1"?I'm going KKIVF Centre tomorrow for my first FET scan tomorrow. But I forget need to push which no.
Dear sisters, sorry to share bad news here.
At 4+am this morning, was awaken by a sharp pain in my abdominal area. Went to toilet and passed out big chunks of liver like tissues.
Woke hb up and he scooped up the tissues (sorry tmi) and we headed down to KKH O&G.
Throughout it all, I was very calm (hb says scarily calm) and composed. No tears, I think it's becos I always had this niggling feeling that sth is wrong so I was alr prepared for this day to come. And becos I have been thru a stillborn @ 24wks so this was considerably less heartbreaking.
We didn't have to wait too long. Doc took our tissues samples and took blood from me.
Results came back after 2 hrs. Beta has dropped from 73 to 29.
Currently still resting in observation ward.
I'm OK... Will look forward to my FET before end of this year. May not want to go thru a second fresh as quite traumatised by the bleeding episodes etc. Come what may.
Hope the stork visits all sisters here with good news soon and no one has to go thru this.
Soya bean milk, red bean soup, protein-rich food like beef, chicken...good to have short walks too to improve blood circulation to the uterus.Anyone knows what to eat or drink to improve uterus lining? I'm on day 8 today and one of my follicles show 15mm and my lining at 5.7mm. Doc told me ideally lining should be 7mm. Tmr will be going for final scan and most prob will do my iui on this coming Mon.
Hello, anyone here taking Chia seeds? I read that it is a very good source of anti oxidant and protein. There are articles recommending taking Chia seeds when trying to conceive. Any thoughts or personal experience?
Thanks the_spinsterella for sharing. May I know what is endo scratch? Thanks.Long cycle may involve Lucrin injections and then after your next period, you'll start stimming which involve puregon etc injections.
Sisters, can I be honest? As I am waiting for DH's soldiers to do their jobs, and waiting for my appointment with Dr. tmr morning, I am afraid.
I am afraid that out of 24 eggs, I will have less than 10 viable embryos. I am afraid that out of 10, I will have only a handful of blastocysts. I am afraid that the single transferred blastocyst will not make it. If that blastocyst does not make it, I will have to fall back on my frozen blastocysts but I am also afraid that they will not survive the freezing and thawing process. I am afraid that after a big round of pain and hope, I will be back to square one, with no baby to hold in my arms.
I am afraid.
I wished that I would have a just-right number of viable embryos that make it to the blastocyst stage. I wished that the one blastocyst will blossom into a beautiful baby. I wished that I will have another few blastocysts that survive the thawing process well so that my first baby will have a few other siblings to play with. I wish that this will be the first and last IVF cycle I ever have to embark on.
I am terrified and I do not know what to do about it.
Thanks!! I will drink more red bean soup these few days. I can drink logan red dates wolfberries tea right?Soya bean milk, red bean soup, protein-rich food like beef, chicken...good to have short walks too to improve blood circulation to the uterus.
Thanks the_spinsterella for sharing. May I know what is endo scratch? Thanks.
Hi koirc, which hospital are u with? Thx!Yes, no choice cos I can't use any Govt co-funding or medisave anymore. It wasn't that bad for a start cos small amounts each month. The killer was the one $9K+ I had to pay after the ET.
Thanks!! I will drink more red bean soup these few days. I can drink logan red dates wolfberries tea right?
Yup! I am drinking longan red date tea and stuffing egg whites now ...Thanks!! I will drink more red bean soup these few days. I can drink logan red dates wolfberries tea right?
Jiayou DawnBB! Jia you Jiayou! Praying heaven and earth and everything to keep baby intact in tummy!Thanks @Bblieve for reminding us to hang on to positive vibes. So in need of this as woke up depressed due to feeling cramps building up since last evening. Not having good feeling about this 2ww. And the haze is making everything gloomy.
Yes fighting! Think positive all! Love and hugs
I'm not sure if all hospitals do this but you can check with your gynae.
What is endometrial scratching?
The lining of the uterus (the endometrium) is gently ‘scratched’ using a thin catheter (a fine, flexible, sterile, plastic tube) which is passed through the cervix.
Embryo implantation should occur five to six days after natural fertilisation or following embryo transfer, when the embryo embeds into the lining of the uterus to continue its development.
Who may benefit from endometrial scratching?
Midland Fertility offers endometrial scratching to women who have had more than two IVF, ICSI or FET cycles which resulted in a negative pregnancy test, despite having good quality embryos.
How does scratching help implantation?
New research and evidence suggests that scratching the uterine lining causes a ‘repair reaction’ which may increase embryo implantation rates.
*hugs* Must be positive ok.
I was delighted when I had 15 matured eggs retrieved. The next day, I felt so crushed when the embryologist called and told me only 1 fertilized normally. I was so down. And that 1 embryo had to be frozen as my progesterone was too high. I didn't have much hope and thought it's already a failed cycle. Plus I did without subsidy so I forked up about 15k cash which means I may have to change hospital if I want to do IVF again. It affected me for days until I tell myself I must be positive for my FET the next month. I didn't know if the embryo will survive the thawing but I told myself that I must be positive and prepare my body for FET. I was so worried and everyday willed the embryo to be strong. My parents were very worried for me and they called me almost everyday telling me that no matter what happens, I've tried my best.
When my FET day came and the embryo survived, I cannot describe how I felt. But I was still worried. I have an endo cyst in my ovary, adeno on the left side and fibroids. I fear that the environment wouldn't be conducive. But I tell myself I must remain positive.
When my BT came and it's positive, I wanted to cry and scream. If I had lost hope and be negative, I don't think this can happen. But hope was all I had and I cling onto it. I haven't done my scan yet but I talk to my baby everyday, thanking it for making it this far and telling it to be strong because so many people wanted to see him/her.
Wa, actually if this really helps in implantation, wonder if we can request the docs to scratch it during ER...? #JustAThought
Agreed that this is really a lonely and tough journey...
Me and hubby have a little baby before but we lost him when the baby us 5 month in my tummy... The concern from both our family after that has created much stress in us.. And also having us to explain to them the reason why the baby could not survive due to gens issue was a headache... They start digging the family background n finding whose gens when wrong but in fact to us all this does not matter because is a gens we cant choose and the finger should not be pointing at anyone...
Now that me and my hubby has decide this IVF journey... We decide that since is a decision of our own we will not inform them until there is good news... I don know if is wrong to do so... But it seems so hard to explain to them why we want to do so and such... I don deny that part of the reason is im afriad that it might not turn out well and they will be disappointed again... Till date only my best friend and my elder sister know about our IVF decision....
I'm also quite concern when i need to take the 2 week HL... How do you girls explain to your collegue on this 2 week HL? Is there Any way to like don't tell them that im going through IVF?
You can ask your doc if they do it. But it has to be done the cycle before ET.
@dramaqueenie take some time to heal and most importantly do and eat things that you enjoy! I had my negative result on Monday. Lets jia you together for FET!
Agreed that this is really a lonely and tough journey...
Me and hubby have a little baby before but we lost him when the baby us 5 month in my tummy... The concern from both our family after that has created much stress in us.. And also having us to explain to them the reason why the baby could not survive due to gens issue was a headache... They start digging the family background n finding whose gens when wrong but in fact to us all this does not matter because is a gens we cant choose and the finger should not be pointing at anyone...
Now that me and my hubby has decide this IVF journey... We decide that since is a decision of our own we will not inform them until there is good news... I don know if is wrong to do so... But it seems so hard to explain to them why we want to do so and such... I don deny that part of the reason is im afriad that it might not turn out well and they will be disappointed again... Till date only my best friend and my elder sister know about our IVF decision....
I'm also quite concern when i need to take the 2 week HL... How do you girls explain to your collegue on this 2 week HL? Is there Any way to like don't tell them that im going through IVF?
Yeah fighting! have to get over it and march on..Thanks dear, am still having bloody episodes nightmare. Beginning to think there's no end. Intend to go on a 3 days feast to make myself happy once I have recovered. Fighting!
wyn0404, yup u will have to see the gynae u chose. but for me was they referred me to kkivf first and set appt directly. so when i met dr hh tan, appt already fixed in nov for ivf.Anyone seeing Dr. Sadhana at KKH? Share your experience about her.
And also anyone is a subsided patient at KKH but ended up changing to a private patient, do they make you to see the gynae that you chose before proceeding to IVF centre? Or anyone that have experience that you are a subsided patient but you can chose which gynae you want at IVF centre. Share your experience.