Hello mommies, I'm a 1st time mom. Can't wait to "offload" & hold my little one in my arms. =) Now that I stumbled across this forum, I realized I'm not alone. I'm so guilty & stressed about my high mc & urgent leave rate that I kept crying & feel so helpless, so useless. Pregnancy has been a tough one so far. Abdominal pains, nausea, vomiting & these past weeks, fever, flu, painful throat, splitting headaches & backaches. I couldn't sleep at all at night, some days if I'm lucky, I finally get so drained & managed to sleep for 2-3 hrs. It's frustrating, I'm so tired yet I can't sleep, I didn't want to resort to medication but I have to. I keep getting people telling me don't be a cry baby, it's all part & parcel of pregnancy, have to be strong, means baby is growing well, blah blah blah... I'm a positive person but perhaps all the more I'm feeling even depressed.