Am totally with you coz being thru it ... it’s extremely painful, hurting & frustrating.Yes, indeed. Very hard to forget. And I actually can't visualize us having our baby and raising the baby together. I know I'm in love with this guy who is my first love, but sometime, those visual of him with her just flashback through my mind and affect my emotion for the rest of the day. But still have to put on a smiley face at work.
Sometime I see him differently. sometime when he very good to me, I wonder is it something fishy going on again. If he reacting very cold, I wonder is it I didn't support him enough.
I wasn't like this before, we were very free and full of trust before. We just read each other msg, now, I felt like a thief checking his phone. We even can see pretty girls or macho guys together and discuss.. But now, things changed. I felt annoying almost anything and everything of china, people, apps, songs, movie, etc..
Yes, there are a lot of ways they can still keep contact which I don't know what else I can check on. If he really cut off, I'm happy and can move on better. But if he is still doing stuff behind my back, then what's the point of continuing the marriage?
It’s so tough to believe whether is his action is being truthful or guilty ... sigh...