heeheesan
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Just to let my feeling out here, I confided to my mum and she said she is tired and sick of listening to all my grumbling and complaints. I also knew that I am really 101% wrong to feel this way but I can't help it.
I have not lack of anything though financially I am also very stress but still managable, husband is okay, and with 2 lovely kids (son and daughter). But to be frank, I am not happy and regretted to have children. I can't deny that they are cute and bring joy and laughter to us at times, but the miserable moment is far more than happiness. They are so noisy and everyday fighting over everything. I had tried all means, be it scolding, caning, talking senses and both hard and soft approach doesn't work at all completely. (My son is 4 and girl is 2). I can't handle them and worse still in public, they just behave like "monkeys", lie down on the floor to protest, keep screaming and cannot stop. They are ok, not hyperactives as what doctor said, but why are they giving me a tough time. Whenever I see all these scenes, i really regret having kids.
Before married, I don't really like kids and I do not play with any be it my niece or other cute cute children. I do not know how to and I am not keen to learn at all. But after married, we thought the family will be complete with a children. By the time my son reach 1+, we thought to have a companion and when we aged and left, our childrens still have each other. But all the assumption we had made are wrong, my husband always told me children are like that, but to me, children should not behave like that.
I also tried my best to shower them with love, we also provide them a complete family model and do not have short of anything which we can afford all given to them, why they bring so much misery to my life. Everyday after work, i rush back home to really wanting to see them, but the moment they start the war and make all sort of noise again, i really can't stand it. Even when my maid told me to just rest in the room, the noise level simply unbearable. I had the thoughts of leaving the house, but where can i go? Even if i leave, the fact that these 2 kids belong to me can never change.
I really feel helpless, I do not know how to disclipline and coach them. Both soft and hard approach doesn't work at all for me. Everyday in my life is screaming, shouting, what else can i do? Am i going to live in this type of life forveer? I really can't take it anymore but what can i do? I have been complaining about my life being miserable to my family and they somehow got sick of it and refuse to lend a listening ear anymore.
Nobody understand and i knew that whatever i say, I can't do anything because this is the reality and fact that i have 2 kids. Driving me crazy and i really hate childrens. it have been 4 years and the regret in me still exist, why?
I have not lack of anything though financially I am also very stress but still managable, husband is okay, and with 2 lovely kids (son and daughter). But to be frank, I am not happy and regretted to have children. I can't deny that they are cute and bring joy and laughter to us at times, but the miserable moment is far more than happiness. They are so noisy and everyday fighting over everything. I had tried all means, be it scolding, caning, talking senses and both hard and soft approach doesn't work at all completely. (My son is 4 and girl is 2). I can't handle them and worse still in public, they just behave like "monkeys", lie down on the floor to protest, keep screaming and cannot stop. They are ok, not hyperactives as what doctor said, but why are they giving me a tough time. Whenever I see all these scenes, i really regret having kids.
Before married, I don't really like kids and I do not play with any be it my niece or other cute cute children. I do not know how to and I am not keen to learn at all. But after married, we thought the family will be complete with a children. By the time my son reach 1+, we thought to have a companion and when we aged and left, our childrens still have each other. But all the assumption we had made are wrong, my husband always told me children are like that, but to me, children should not behave like that.
I also tried my best to shower them with love, we also provide them a complete family model and do not have short of anything which we can afford all given to them, why they bring so much misery to my life. Everyday after work, i rush back home to really wanting to see them, but the moment they start the war and make all sort of noise again, i really can't stand it. Even when my maid told me to just rest in the room, the noise level simply unbearable. I had the thoughts of leaving the house, but where can i go? Even if i leave, the fact that these 2 kids belong to me can never change.
I really feel helpless, I do not know how to disclipline and coach them. Both soft and hard approach doesn't work at all for me. Everyday in my life is screaming, shouting, what else can i do? Am i going to live in this type of life forveer? I really can't take it anymore but what can i do? I have been complaining about my life being miserable to my family and they somehow got sick of it and refuse to lend a listening ear anymore.
Nobody understand and i knew that whatever i say, I can't do anything because this is the reality and fact that i have 2 kids. Driving me crazy and i really hate childrens. it have been 4 years and the regret in me still exist, why?