Aarthy Murugappan
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Today me and my 3 year old son were walking home from the mall. we were only a few meters away from reaching home near the traffic signal. my son is a very daring and play full boy.
He does not understand the concept of being scared. and he also does not like to sit down in his pram any more so i usually just let him walk with me holding my hands. he likes to press the traffic signal button.
So for a single moment i let his hands go for pressing the button and he was standing with me for a few secs. and then he just ran across the road without a warning when the lights were still red . there was a car which was speeding near us . i started screaming my head off and running after him. and my son who is a small boy did not understand, he thought we were playing. but thankfully he missed getting hit by the car in a few inches.
I was frozen for a moment, i was full of guilt, angry with myself for letting him go for that one moment. i feel terrible and shaken to my core for i will not be able to forgive my self if anything was to happen to that boy. i feel anxious and worried and i am unable to clam myself down. this scene of what if ... keeps flashing in my head repeatedly again and again.
I know nothing bad happened and i know that i will take extra extra care to not let that happen again. but still feel unbearable and painful and guilt ridden.
He does not understand the concept of being scared. and he also does not like to sit down in his pram any more so i usually just let him walk with me holding my hands. he likes to press the traffic signal button.
So for a single moment i let his hands go for pressing the button and he was standing with me for a few secs. and then he just ran across the road without a warning when the lights were still red . there was a car which was speeding near us . i started screaming my head off and running after him. and my son who is a small boy did not understand, he thought we were playing. but thankfully he missed getting hit by the car in a few inches.
I was frozen for a moment, i was full of guilt, angry with myself for letting him go for that one moment. i feel terrible and shaken to my core for i will not be able to forgive my self if anything was to happen to that boy. i feel anxious and worried and i am unable to clam myself down. this scene of what if ... keeps flashing in my head repeatedly again and again.
I know nothing bad happened and i know that i will take extra extra care to not let that happen again. but still feel unbearable and painful and guilt ridden.