Hello all.
Thanks for sharing all these experiences! Technically speaking, I am a mom to be, but i foresee certain scenarios (just by reading the thread) i am gonna face when i return to work after the ML...
the man is a workaholic, hardcore one, no fixed working hours, but def longer then normal working class when he's not even self employed.
there's only 2 of us at home and I am into the 7th month preg, and there are so many occasions whereby when i leave for work at 7am, he's slping. when he returned home sometimes as late as 2am... i am already sleeping. including weekends.
i've little friends to begin with, after i'm preg even lesser coz i get tired easily and tend to choose to rest at home. i'm like, the only one that's married and preg, while the closest group of gfs are all single.. even similar topics getting lesser...
i've noone to talk to, on PH, off days, on rest days, on weekends. my own family is busy with their own biz, and all work till midnight. he's not close to his family.
i was terminated by my previous coy when they know about my preg at 1 month old, super like the job scope and pay! but well... hais. so i managed to find another job.. the boss 'willing' to hire me, but with no other benefits except the maternity leave of 4 mths. No AL, no ... nth... and with a 35% paycut. i am now taking home the salary i was earning when i finished my O'levels. lol. i now travel to work every day via bus-bus-bus-walk. total journey takes me 1.5hours... to and fro is like 3 hours.
cant quit, coz the man dun support the idea of SAHM.
i've booked childbirth education classes, knowing that i will def need some crash course as i have noone to help me after bb is out, and esp after the CL leaves after 28days. the man say he will attend with me.. but he failed too. i see no point in attending the classes anymore. and the thought of putting the bb at infant care at 4+months kills me.
upcoming next there are times whereby i will be home alone for a few days for the next 2 months. i survived 3 days alone few weeks ago. a few more to go.
Feel like i am going crazy anytime soon, so many times i cried when i was alone. best time to crying fact is during showers. but the thought of emo mummy = emo baby scares me, so i always try to limit my tears to no more then 5 mins.
it's bb kicks and movements that wake me up each time i am feeling emo and down, and keeps me going!
ok. enough of rants. if you'd read till tis far, thank you. :')