I was being sexually abuse by my cousin’s grandpa when young. When parents fetch me to home to stay with them, dad abuse me, always vent his anger on me or for no reason beat me up. (he very hot tempered) If mum help me, she will get it from him too. I helped dad do quotation and some accounts since 9years old, both my bro and sis don’t want do for him. (dad owns a construction company) Still remember he force me to write while I was preparing for my PSLE, wonder how I pass my PSLE!
I always wanted to get and leave this ‘hell’ house asap, have boyfriend at 15years old. End up he had sex with me, no one teach me sex! By the time, I realize… he already changed his contact number, Thank God, I wasn’t pregnant.
Dad don’t allowed me to go for nursing course, it is my passion. He said very dirty…etc If I defy him, they whole house would be in chaos, and everyone could blame me, so I gave up studies and work in childcare.
Went steady with Steven age 15plus. 4yrs rela ended cos he have 3rd party. I was so sad and can’t sleep that night. Went to work as usual, out of nowhere, I fainted. Was unconscious for don’t know how long, till kids called for other teacher, they wake me up, but I couldn’t move an inch, it hurts like siao. Was sent to old TTSH, doctor admitted me. I request to be discharge to take my last paper, but doctor don’t allowed. (I was taking Kinderland early childhood dip, I score all As, 1 last paper to go, had a very hard time with this course due to timing) End up, I lost the whole certificate. It is already stated that even hospitalized won’t be exempted. I couldn’t go back to work as usual, cos I can’t bend 90degrees. Went for physiotherapy and was on pain medicine.
Due to can’t work cos back pain killing me, mum and dad thought I don’t want to work. Give me ‘face’, I was really unhappy, got no one to turn to. Attempt suicide few times but unsuccessful. There was once, doctor wanted to send me to MPH (mental problem hospital) I struggle with the nurse, cos they want to injected me with don’t know what medicine, I knew once injected, I would be helpless and sent to MPH. Lucky, auntie Grace help me, neogotiate with doctor, change my 1 bedded room to open ward. But that stupid doctor want me to take pills right in front of him. I hide the pill under my tongue, show it to my mum when he left! Still remembered mum hugged me tightly and kept apologizing to me.
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