Hi,
on 5th Jan's night,he slap my 23 mth girl on her lap for making noise (coz she's tired & want to slp).he ask her to shut up at 1st,but she cry,so he slap her 1 time,she cry even louder,he ask her to keep quiet,but of coz she can't coz itz painful..& so he keep slaping her until i step in..
i told him nicely that children at her age is like that when they are tired.we parents have to be more patient..he shout at me :"you teach her since u r so clever"!
he is a mummy's boy,he always agree to his mum no matter right or wrong.& so i mentioned that my mil also agree that we should hv patient on kids..
he shout at me:"if u not happy,u can die back ur mum's hse"!..
i got very upset & i carry my girl & left the hse..at 1st i thot of going to my mum hse,but i still headed for my mil hse as i do thot,if were to go to my mum,it might make things worse & can't settle this issue,bcoz i still want to salvage my marridge.
so in the end his dad gave him a scolding & that's it...
actually, i hv long given up hope on him.
i told myself that with no expectation,i will have no disappointment.this way,i'll feel better..don't ecpect him to spend some time with my girl even if he is free,don't expect him to take care of me when i am hospitalise due to dengue,don't expect him to show care & concern to me & don expect him to respect me as a wife or mother of my girl..
can't talk to him if i hv encounter problems with ppl at work,he will just say that i got no brain,why don talk back,why don't stab back ppl..
i simply can't get any love,care & concern from the man i once love so deeply..
i have comitted suicide for twice before,admitted to IMH once..
1st time was mum force me to pack my stuff & bring baby out of our hse,bcoz he always take it out on me & my girl whenever he is unhappy.mum force me to divorce him,i took half bottle of detergent & ended up in ttsh..still,i do not want to divorce him then .i cannot accept the fact that i will follow my mum's footstep & let my girl grow up in a broken family..i want her to grow up happily & in the hand of love & healthy family..i hv been thru this when mum divorce dad when i was 7..1 day when i wake up from my sleep & find myself in my aunt's hse..i hv never seen my mum,dad,sis & bro from them on untill i turn 12..i lost my closest kin overnight..where have they gone?! i left school at 14 to work as mum was certified with leukemia.i am not well educated but i know,i must try my best to provide the best for my girl.& infact my hb is not like me,he is well educated,work in gov..he doesn't spare a thought for me & atleast respect my decision.to him,woman are cheap & lower level animal..
i just don understand why we can't talk things over nicely when we have some disagreement?why he have to show me face?
this morning while i was taking train to work,i asked myself.am i?am i going to stay in this type of unhappy marriage life with this man?
i just want a peaceful & happy life.a simple family life will do..
on 5th Jan's night,he slap my 23 mth girl on her lap for making noise (coz she's tired & want to slp).he ask her to shut up at 1st,but she cry,so he slap her 1 time,she cry even louder,he ask her to keep quiet,but of coz she can't coz itz painful..& so he keep slaping her until i step in..
i told him nicely that children at her age is like that when they are tired.we parents have to be more patient..he shout at me :"you teach her since u r so clever"!
he is a mummy's boy,he always agree to his mum no matter right or wrong.& so i mentioned that my mil also agree that we should hv patient on kids..
he shout at me:"if u not happy,u can die back ur mum's hse"!..
i got very upset & i carry my girl & left the hse..at 1st i thot of going to my mum hse,but i still headed for my mil hse as i do thot,if were to go to my mum,it might make things worse & can't settle this issue,bcoz i still want to salvage my marridge.
so in the end his dad gave him a scolding & that's it...
actually, i hv long given up hope on him.
i told myself that with no expectation,i will have no disappointment.this way,i'll feel better..don't ecpect him to spend some time with my girl even if he is free,don't expect him to take care of me when i am hospitalise due to dengue,don't expect him to show care & concern to me & don expect him to respect me as a wife or mother of my girl..
can't talk to him if i hv encounter problems with ppl at work,he will just say that i got no brain,why don talk back,why don't stab back ppl..
i simply can't get any love,care & concern from the man i once love so deeply..
i have comitted suicide for twice before,admitted to IMH once..
1st time was mum force me to pack my stuff & bring baby out of our hse,bcoz he always take it out on me & my girl whenever he is unhappy.mum force me to divorce him,i took half bottle of detergent & ended up in ttsh..still,i do not want to divorce him then .i cannot accept the fact that i will follow my mum's footstep & let my girl grow up in a broken family..i want her to grow up happily & in the hand of love & healthy family..i hv been thru this when mum divorce dad when i was 7..1 day when i wake up from my sleep & find myself in my aunt's hse..i hv never seen my mum,dad,sis & bro from them on untill i turn 12..i lost my closest kin overnight..where have they gone?! i left school at 14 to work as mum was certified with leukemia.i am not well educated but i know,i must try my best to provide the best for my girl.& infact my hb is not like me,he is well educated,work in gov..he doesn't spare a thought for me & atleast respect my decision.to him,woman are cheap & lower level animal..
i just don understand why we can't talk things over nicely when we have some disagreement?why he have to show me face?
this morning while i was taking train to work,i asked myself.am i?am i going to stay in this type of unhappy marriage life with this man?
i just want a peaceful & happy life.a simple family life will do..