hi everyone
i'm gonna be 35 this year. My little princess has just turned 1yr old. Me too pondering if i shd try for #2. I know it's not always, try and will have. But i'm worried my gal will not have any family when Mommy & Daddy is gone from this world. Cos, i got 3 elder sisters, all married but no kids. So she wont even have cousins. Hubby side, got only one younger brother. Not married yet, but i heard the gf like not keen on kids. But i'm fearful cos seriously, my gal was a VERY fussy baby. She was colicky, had reflux, and becos she was on TBF, nursed very often for comfort. My back is killing me now. I dread to think of going thru it all over again, the sleepless nights, not that i sleep very well now, but it was worse during newborn days. A lot of people say i think too much...but i'd also worry how to handle a newborn AND my current demanding princess. Becos she was TBF, her emotional bond with me is VERY strong. She accepts no one but me to nurse her to sleep, carry her, etc
The other reason i'm hesitating is becos i would want to focus on her. I dote on her a lot, and i think by rushing to have #2 just becos of my age, is a bit unfair to her. Needless to say, once got #2, newborn needs will take priority. I'm worried i wont have enough time spend on my princess.
Sigh.