Dear Klmm;
Hugs to you. It must have been hard for you.
Experienced GD some years ago. Today, this kid is my pride and joy, am very thankful. I want to encourage you that you can overcome this, it just takes time.
1. GD is a like a ‘broken dream’: the kind of life or dream we envision our life to be. Now that we realised we may no longer live that dream, we feel a deep sense of loss and disappointment. Allow yourself to grieve over this loss and disappointment. You are allowed to feel the way you are feeling now, don’t be hard on yourself.
Know that we are resilient and one day, we will get over it, slowly but surely.
2. Hormonal changes can mess up your emotions, skewed your thoughts and thus aggravating GD. Seek someone (eg. counsellor) to talk it through if need be. Being able talk it out helps. But do so only if you feel safe and comfortable with that person.
3. Meanwhile, if being in a specific environment (eg. close friends or relatives pregnant/with kids with your desired gender) triggers your GD, avoid it for the time being. Practise self-care.
3. Be patient with yourself, don’t rush yourself to get over it, don’t get frustrated with yourself, or feel guilty about it. We are only human and cannot be expected to be perfect all the time. Important thing is that we aware of our feelings and are putting in efforts to overcome it.
There are many people out there with some form of GD; so really, you are not alone in this journey. You are brave to share your feelings. Kudos to you.
Remember, these feelings don’t make you feel good right now, but this too shall come to pass.
God bless.