I truly feel hunnymummy 's words are very well-said !!
same Sentimentals exactly !!
my situation is very much like hunnymummy
further to my earlier post, I have tendered resignation despite the loss of a highly paid salary & 4 mths maternity. I faced alot of exclamation from friends though, sounding out to me that I am so silly etc but only true friends and Mummies who will truly understand the need and priority of placing your baby and health above anything else after hearing my story!
I tender my resignation when i was in week 11.
Before that I was in a great dilemma and was in great depression, causing not only depression and stress to the unborn baby inside me, but also my hubby and parents who truly cared for me, their heart ache seeing me like this.
At week 11, I was already feeling much better in my Morning sickness already. but situation in the office doesn't get much better. it was becoming worse. Director (who is also overseeing HR) wanted my GM to reassign job JD. isn't things obvious ? and whenever she saw me, she will start to give me the kind of "i dun like you" stare look. and other dept see me as a free lodging & clerk as well, started to scream at me at slightest thing, many times alot of things are unknown to me or not my fault at all. I cannot scold back, because I am pregnant. I tolerated I expressed my displease to my GM, but my GM is also facing the same treatment, so he just asked me to let go. everyday i go back feeling down. and i can sense baby inside feeling likewise because I started feeling nauseous again which i don't experience during weekends when I am not working and by right the MS nauseous shd be subsidizing.
I read, when you are stress up, or low in spirits, your hormones tend to be up to help you maintain stability in your pregnancy. and these hormones causes you terrible sickness.
now I am into my week 15. just started staying at home to "yang Tai" for 2 days...
I admit I started off feeling a bit out of place on Day 1, because seeing everyone going to work, while I go to market for breakfast, doesn't feel good..i started thinking about the Money, alot of "what if" comes across my mind. feeling useless, feeling the loss of a high paid salary...tears fall again in the evening..Hubby comforted me, told me, though we have no money, but we are happy, he never feel so happy and peaceful before, I should feel the same too.
today i feel calm. because I know the baby inside me is happy...after reading hunnymummy post, i feel more glad too...this is my first baby, i definitely want my baby to be a happy, secured baby. not a crybaby like me...so I will go on and tell myself to be strong.
one of my friends is encouraging me to open up for business opportunity...
i wrote my pregnancy journal this morning..
recalling back the joy and happiness when first knew i was pregnant, yet the next moment, all the ups&downs emotionally, suddenly feel i have given too much stress to baby from week 5 - week 11..time to make up for baby...
i surf the net looking at cute babies pictures...
thinking of what I can help my hubby, eg iron his clothes, so that he can focus on his career
thinking how to take care of myself eg ensure I drink enough water, eat regularly...
thinking how to make myself light hearted...
watch a comedy , enjoy music...
my friend told me, her 5 mths old baby like to laugh out loud, she feels this probably due partly of her pregnancy, she was taking things positive and light-hearted. [IMG=http://www.singaporemotherhood.com/forumboard/clipart/happy.gif] i definitely feel the truth in what hunnymummy says. [IMG=http://www.singaporemotherhood.com/forumboard/clipart/happy.gif]
yes now I am still looking out for a job...i try not to lose hope..though i know the chances of getting a job /company that hire a pregnant woman may be low, though I want to lower down my expectations. but still, never know until you try..so i just try..whenever i see a suitable posting will just apply first.
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meanwhile, this is a 6 mths holiday break for me, till delivery..
yes yes.. [IMG=http://www.singaporemotherhood.com/forumboard/clipart/happy.gif]
i keep telling myself, i worked for almost 7 years..never never really have a break, i don't need any travelling trips...i just need some time by myself, time to do things i like, relax and sleep the way i always want and not restricted by weekends ..now is the time to do it !
4 months maternity leave ???
forget it forget it...
yes ... there are many things you need to buy for newborn baby, for your pregnancy, ...but we can always scrimp and buy 2nd hand or ask for handsdown..
but there are many many more things you cannot buy with money...laughter, smiles, happiness, blissful ... [IMG=http://www.singaporemotherhood.com/forumboard/clipart/happy.gif]