During pregancy, it was joyful as i was with gb twin. It was a planned pregnancy and my husband and myself wanted children so much after many years of infertility.
after babies were borned, they changed my life. My girl twin is always the happy one smiling and such. But my twin boy was the opposite. He is the grouchy one most of the times and when it comes to meal times esp, he will be so difficult to feed. He is extremely picky eater and today he threw up the spaghetti i made for dinner along with milk. I was soooooo sooooo angry that i slapped his cheek and screamed at him!! Then my husband took him and cared for him after. I told my hb that i don't want to see him or hear him for the rest of the night.
This is not the first time i am angry with him that i smack him. I didnt plan to hit him but he made me really angry that i feel i had to i feel the instant gratification at once but felt a tad bad afterwards of course and told myself that i cannot do that. But the cycle comes again and i did the same thing. I feel horrible. I am exhausted taking care of 2 babies for almost a year now as i am not working and all alone at home that i feel like just jump and kill myself and them.
is there any medication that i can take to make me feel better?
after babies were borned, they changed my life. My girl twin is always the happy one smiling and such. But my twin boy was the opposite. He is the grouchy one most of the times and when it comes to meal times esp, he will be so difficult to feed. He is extremely picky eater and today he threw up the spaghetti i made for dinner along with milk. I was soooooo sooooo angry that i slapped his cheek and screamed at him!! Then my husband took him and cared for him after. I told my hb that i don't want to see him or hear him for the rest of the night.
This is not the first time i am angry with him that i smack him. I didnt plan to hit him but he made me really angry that i feel i had to i feel the instant gratification at once but felt a tad bad afterwards of course and told myself that i cannot do that. But the cycle comes again and i did the same thing. I feel horrible. I am exhausted taking care of 2 babies for almost a year now as i am not working and all alone at home that i feel like just jump and kill myself and them.
is there any medication that i can take to make me feel better?